an unhappy ending

I guess the year is gonna end on a down note for EFA. I feel that I have failed to lead this group and manage my time for it in an effective way. We have raised over $100 of our goal of $1000. These past 2 weeks I have failed to notify group members of their tasks and to get an announcement out for the video showing which will be the starter for next year. We didn't have and awareness night. We did do the mother's day baskets but that didnt sell so well. we will finish the year by selling food at final exams. I feel like I should have given more but it was just so hard with the lack of support. We never used key club b/c they were so busy with their own stuff. But I guess this maens that next year we can just try all the harder. Ms carmen wants us to join her advisory so we can have regular meetings but noone likes the idea, we all chose our advisories because they had something to give us. I feel like, and I feel awful saying it, astronomy is more important to me than Efa because it's what I'm considering as my future career. I love what I'm trying to do and I'm sad to realise that it has to come second. I tried so hard and it came down to so little, which makes me think I need to work harder, but I don't know if I can really give much more. I tried and sometimes it's good to fail because then you can learn from your mistakes. I learned that it's much easier to be like 2nd in command than 1st.