an unhappy ending

I guess the year is gonna end on a down note for EFA. I feel that I have failed to lead this group and manage my time for it in an effective way. We have raised over $100 of our goal of $1000. These past 2 weeks I have failed to notify group members of their tasks and to get an announcement out for the video showing which will be the starter for next year. We didn't have and awareness night. We did do the mother's day baskets but that didnt sell so well. we will finish the year by selling food at final exams. I feel like I should have given more but it was just so hard with the lack of support. We never used key club b/c they were so busy with their own stuff. But I guess this maens that next year we can just try all the harder. Ms carmen wants us to join her advisory so we can have regular meetings but noone likes the idea, we all chose our advisories because they had something to give us. I feel like, and I feel awful saying it, astronomy is more important to me than Efa because it's what I'm considering as my future career. I love what I'm trying to do and I'm sad to realise that it has to come second. I tried so hard and it came down to so little, which makes me think I need to work harder, but I don't know if I can really give much more. I tried and sometimes it's good to fail because then you can learn from your mistakes. I learned that it's much easier to be like 2nd in command than 1st.

Three Cups of Tea

Our last project was selling mothers day baskets last week. We sold about 20 tickets so we made $20 because Mary's mom donated the items. We were supposed to have a meeting yesterday but I had a guidance counseler, and unfortunately none of the other members could find each other. I feel bad because I feel like this is such an important cause we're working towards, but we're not making very much progress. I feel like it's my fault because I'm the one who's planned and initiated this activity. No one has seemed to mind the location of where the schools are being built, so there hasn't been any ethical complications. I think we just need to keep trying our best because I'm sure any way we can help is still much appreciated. I feel like I need to work on my leadership skills, but I hate being a leader, I feel more comfortable as second in command or a leader's assistant.

Haunted House - The Big Night

I had planned to do behind the scenes work and donate to the haunted house. I helped build the scene, donated props and candy, and during the performance I worked with admittance up front and painted faces in the kids room. The outcomes were that we raised a lot of money, people who went through it loved the haunted house, and everyone had a lot of fun doing it. I felt bad when I didn't help as much, stressed when we were setting up, awesome during the first night, a little bored and stressed on the second. I interacted with the whole cast as we went through runthroughs and got everything set up and I interacted with the customers by taking their money and painting their faces. I perceived that I enjoyed working with STAGE very much and that during the shows parents seem to underestimate how scared their kids get. I thought the activity was stressful because there were a lot of things that had to be done but I also think it was an awesome activity and I really enjoyed doing it and getting to help the school. This activity means a lot to me, I met many new people who I would have never met and I found out that I love to help and take directions and get stuff done, it's fun for me. The value of this activity is that we entertained a lot of people and really got the school involved in the community. This activity benefited STAGE with all the money we raised and it benefited the school because we're becoming more popular in the area and it benefited the people who came and had a good time and got to see the expressions on their kids faces. This activity met Learning outcome 4 because I definitely had to work with many other people to get this up and running and I really appreciate all their help, everyone was great. This activity also meets learning outcome 7 because we definitely had to consider the ethical implications of scaring little kids; we built a whole separate area for them but all the parents wanted to drag them through the haunted house and we had a lot of families interrupting the tours because they had to leave which ruined it for other groups they passed on the way out. My goals weren't too high or low but I wouldn't call what I did exactly behind the scenes so I guess I didn't meet that part. We had too many difficulties to remember. The time difficulty was overcome because we just opened a little later so we could get everything set up. The minor problems were overcome but we had to keep stopping tours. Our shortage of people was overcome by replacements. I learned that some people refuse to listen to others like when parents wouldn't listen to us or their kids, which is a good lesson to learn young so you know there are people out there like that. Also I learned that I love to help, which is a great thing because most jobs entail helping in some way shape or form. I can't wait to continue my work with STAGE.

Haunted House - Creating Scenery

Today I helped paint cardboard to use in the scenery and volunteered to do behind the scenes and set up work both nights of the haunted house. It was a lot of fun to paint the different props and see stuff other people had brought in. We painted seaweed on these brown pieces and blood on these black pieces, it was looking pretty spooky. Also, as part of my behind the scenes work it's my job to do the characters makeup and make them as scary as possible. This could have ethical implications considering we're doing all this to scare people. I thought that the idea of people paying for them and their kids to get scared was a funny ethical implication, but I felt bad when I told Ms. Hike because she was all worried about it. We did get a lot done though, everyone worked really hard to paint as much as we could, and next time I'm bringing in all the supplies I can get my hands on.